Only because I've been on tumblr way too much. 

I see people getting into relationships. I should be happy for them but all I feel right now is emptiness...or resentment. It fucking sucks. I don't know what the fuck happened to make me feel this way (maybe I do, I just don't want to acknowledge it) but I am feeling this. It's their life. Why would I let their relationship affect me?

Maybe I'm starting to lose faith in relationships. I'm starting not believing it. People make relationships a norm. A necessity. Then what? They make it seem like it's part of who they are. How can you be truly who you are if there's someone who either make it or break it for you? It'd seem like your life is revolving around that person.

Then again, that's part of the package. I guess you just have to deal and change your views on relationships or end it.

Just to make sure, this is just one of my musings whenever I think about her (whoever she is).

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So..I'm bored. Summer has begun a week ago (summer I mean break from school, since summer solstice was two days ago /nerd). Monday, I received 'Skins the Novel' in the mail. I've been busy doing chores, work, tidying up the apartment for my dad's arrival, that I didn't finish the book until two hours ago. Naomily is PURE LOVE. Lily Loveless is gorgeous (loved her acting on the Series 4 finale). Kathryn Prescott is an amazing actress (she and her sister are beautiful).

Moving on with books, maybe Ayn Rand's 'The Fountainhead' is next on the list. I've been trying to read it for a year and a half now, it's just a fucking long book! I just need to cut down my computer time so I could actually finish it, and hopefully one more book, over the summer before Uni starts.

And I'm planning to come out to my dad during the Pride Parade (my whole family's going, dunno about my brother though). I hope he'll get the message without me bothering to come up with a 'speech.' Speaking of my dad, he's on the plane as I type.

As much as work bores me out for the past few months, I keep on looking forward to afternoon shifts (3-11pm or 1-9pm). Mainly because around 6-8pm, this regular customer whom I've a crush on comes in to buy her tea. My body literally flushes when she comes in; it's evident on my face too--not only it burns up, it also has this ridiculous smile plastered on it. It's okay, I suppose, because she doesn't really look up when she orders. She's always on her BlackBerry BBM-ing her equally pretty fingers away with her adorable smile that just lights up her whole face. (Yes, I've been staring *hides*). I've never felt this way since I was a kid! It's wonderful to feel it again :">

Anyway, time to sleep. I have to be early tomorrow for our Grad Rehearsal. When I say early, I mean 9am early. Yes, I'm not a morning person.

[Photo of sunset seen on Lakeshore Blvd West, Toronto, Canada. On our way home from downtown. Not so good phone photo quality]

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Should be studying for the Bio exam tomorrow. A blank sheet of paper, Mac's facing me with Safari open on LiveJournal and other tabs. Fail?-an understatement

This is my last year of high school, I'm so excited to get out of it that my mind is not entirely on the exams I have to write. Don't blame me though, I already graduated high school in my country before we moved here only to learn that I have to stay 2 more years in high school. I really can't wait for the exams to be over!

My dad's flying here on June 24th for my graduation on the 28th. That should be fun, I mean we haven't seen him in almost a year and I'm planing on coming out to him. I'm scared shitless. My mom laughed when she imagined what my dad's reaction will be. I don't know if that's a good thing or not.

Take my phone and my laptop away from me!!! I need to study! *headdesk*


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Well, most of my username from other websites are iameliza or eliza andrea or eliza15andrea. I just thought that I've been using my name too much so I decided to use my nickname, Lys. The prefix iam--i am--i got that from my cousin. So technically, it wasn't my complete idea. And I'd rather be a little bit true about myself over the internet. Not a smart way to go but at least it saves me the struggle to find a wacky, unrelated-to-myself names. So yea, iamlys. I am Lys. Nice to meet you. :)

It's about time to update this.

This is me procrastinating for my math exam tomorrow. I got home from work at 4pm, changed, planned to take a 2-hour nap that turned to a 5-hour nap. Well, that's understandable because I only had 4 hours of sleep before work. It was so busy at work. It's a miracle that I didn't get cranky..since I was working with a 4-hour sleep.Tsk tsk. Anyway, what I'm trying to get through is I'm such a lost cause.

2009 was pretty awesome but there's just too much drama. Got drunk 3 times that year within a course of 5 months. *flashbacks* sigh... There's just too much drama I don't want to delve into it.

( 2010... )
*poof*

 Canada Day...had to work afternoon/evening shift. i don't mind though. when i got home, my mom ordered in. Pizza Hut. :)

25 days left until my one and a half summer vacation. i really can't wait for it. i'm getting excited every time i think about it. *grins* it'd be so worth the hard work at work and at school. totally needed the break. 

my thoughts are all over the place. i can't piece them all together. i want to say more and in a more coherent way than this. tsk. tsk. 

oh! my family and i had officially been living a year and twenty-two days here in Canada. we arrived here on June 9th, 2008. we were originally from the Philippines. time fly so fast. we're glad that we survived our first winter (since the Philippines is a tropical country). hahaha. 

Pride week last week. shame i wasn't able to join the parade. next year, i would remember to book the day off from work. *shakes head* plus side: i have a year long to find a date for the 2010 Pride parade. LOL.

well, that's all i could think to say....BTW, follow me on twitter ;)

PS: if anyone's wondering how to decipher my previous journal, read it from top to bottom and from left to right, ;)

ciao.

 



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